Day 67
After staying up until 2am on the phone last night, I came to work completely exhausted b0th physically and emotionally. I'm so tired of going over and over the same conversation three times a week. I'm so tired of trying to make a recent divorcee realize that I'm not his ex-wife, I'm not mean, I'm not hurtful, that's just not me and it never will be. I'm not the kind of woman that would mistreat someone and then when they left me...do everything I can to make their life miserable. Again, that's not me. Even though I'm tired and completely exhausted I'm not giving up, because..guess what? That's not me either. I don't walk away from things when they get too complicated or frustrating. I stick around and bust my ass trying to work through the muck that has gotten in the way of happiness and maybe that's my big relationship flaw, not knowing when to just throw my cards on the table and walk away. Or maybe it's not a flaw, maybe it's a good thing because even though I'm apparently not helping my relationship out, in the long run I seem to be helping the girls after me. Whatever, I adore this man and I've never given up before (okay well technically with Scott there was a bit of a give-up scenario but that's another story) so why in the world am I going to start now?
Anyway, work was a bit of a struggle because of sheer exhaustion. I managed to make it though and went home, put on my pj's and hopped into my bed. I curled up with the tv on and tried to take a short nap. Then Nathan called me early since he had stuff to get done and I was purely exhausted from the night before. We talked briefly about our weekend plans and then he had to go and help his dad fix a toilet in their house. I watched TV just for a bit more and then turned it of and read some until I could barely keep my eyes open. I'm gonna post this and then let Stephanie know that she should call and let me know when she's here so we can work out the parking arrangement for the night and I could let her into the house, cause there's no way I'm gonna hear a text message in the next few minutes...I'm about to be out like a light!
Anyway, work was a bit of a struggle because of sheer exhaustion. I managed to make it though and went home, put on my pj's and hopped into my bed. I curled up with the tv on and tried to take a short nap. Then Nathan called me early since he had stuff to get done and I was purely exhausted from the night before. We talked briefly about our weekend plans and then he had to go and help his dad fix a toilet in their house. I watched TV just for a bit more and then turned it of and read some until I could barely keep my eyes open. I'm gonna post this and then let Stephanie know that she should call and let me know when she's here so we can work out the parking arrangement for the night and I could let her into the house, cause there's no way I'm gonna hear a text message in the next few minutes...I'm about to be out like a light!
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