Day 61

Still feeling like crap, took the day off from working out again which doesn't make me feel any better really. I need to get back to it otherwise I'm going to fall out of it completely. I watched "I Am Legend" with Jordan, she got it on the netflix since I'd never seen it before. It was horribly depressing. And that didn't help leading up to the phone conversation with Nathan. We've had a few very serious conversations lately and I felt really good after the first one, like we were in a good place but after yesterdays I feel nothing but scared. Moving to Wilmington may be a bit premature, I'm not sure but I know that I want to do it because if we don't experience some kind of normalcy in our relationship we may not make it through this. We've managed to make it through this long distance thing for six months now but it's been easy, to a point anyway, but things have changed and stress has been added. I know I can make it through this struggle but I'm not sure he will...so I'm not sure that WE will. I just know that I'm going to be doing a lot of praying over the next few days...keep me in yours, I'm going to need it.