Day 103
I woke up in a tiny bit of a depression today. I had a difficult conversation with Nathan last night and it's lingering into today.
It just comes down to the fact that this long distance thing is not getting any easier. I mean I never thought it would, but I was hoping that I would get to see him more during the summer rather than less. And that would make it so much easier to bear the fact that I'm not going to move down there and so much easier to bear the fact that we've got to keep doing this distance thing until he gets into Chapel Hill (IF he gets in...he's got great grades and a super GPA but he could still not get in). I just keep letting emotional boy stuff drag me down, I know, but it's just been so freaking hard to deal with never seeing someone when you want to see them every second of every day.
Anyway, when I got home, I vacuumed. That was my workout, it burns calories and the house sooo needed to be cleaned a bit. And then Jordan and I drove to Wake Forest (note: it's only about a 10 minute drive from my house) to Big Boy Gyro and got Lamb Gyros for dinner...YUM! and we watched Pulse from the Netflix. Not impressed. It was FREAKY! and so completely and utterly un-realistic. If you wanna watch it the only pluses are the inevitably hot guy and Kristen Bell of Veronica Mars fame, she's pretty freaking awesome.
I guess the day ended better than it began, so that's a good thing. Hopefully tonight's conversation can rectify all the sad emotions that last nights convo brought on...only time will tell.
It just comes down to the fact that this long distance thing is not getting any easier. I mean I never thought it would, but I was hoping that I would get to see him more during the summer rather than less. And that would make it so much easier to bear the fact that I'm not going to move down there and so much easier to bear the fact that we've got to keep doing this distance thing until he gets into Chapel Hill (IF he gets in...he's got great grades and a super GPA but he could still not get in). I just keep letting emotional boy stuff drag me down, I know, but it's just been so freaking hard to deal with never seeing someone when you want to see them every second of every day.
Anyway, when I got home, I vacuumed. That was my workout, it burns calories and the house sooo needed to be cleaned a bit. And then Jordan and I drove to Wake Forest (note: it's only about a 10 minute drive from my house) to Big Boy Gyro and got Lamb Gyros for dinner...YUM! and we watched Pulse from the Netflix. Not impressed. It was FREAKY! and so completely and utterly un-realistic. If you wanna watch it the only pluses are the inevitably hot guy and Kristen Bell of Veronica Mars fame, she's pretty freaking awesome.
I guess the day ended better than it began, so that's a good thing. Hopefully tonight's conversation can rectify all the sad emotions that last nights convo brought on...only time will tell.
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