Special Delivery
It never ceases to amaze me that when I need to hear something or feel something or be inspired in some way...the Lord always provides.
I've been having a very difficult time dealing with this breakup, seeing as I really had hopped this would be it for me. It's very painful and slightly annoying when your friends and family have all kinds of unhelpful comments to offer and suggestions for moving on. I'm sorry folks but when you've been dumped you don't want to hear things like "there's more fish in the sea" or "what a jerk, you deserve so much better". etc, etc, ad nauseum. It's words like these that make your heartbreak even more difficult to bear and when in truth you want nothing more than for that person to realize their mistake and come rushing back into your life, it makes you wish you didn't have friends at all. Okay, maybe that last part was a bit extreme, but people... give a girl some time to breathe and mourn and wish for a return before you slap her in the face with "you deserve so much better". At least this girl doesn't want to hear that until I've either moved on or decided I'm done mourning the loss, because let's face it if I thought that he wasn't worth it, I wouldn't still be crying and being depressed.
It was so refreshing to get to spend the evening with my friend Michele last night. We talked about her job and things that she's been going through and how much she wished she had more girl friends closer to where she lives. Then the time came to talk about my disappointing breakup. What a relief that she didn't call him a jerk or say anything negative at all, for Michele has been through what I am going through. He's not a jerk and yes he's said some mean and hurtful things and YES there is a strong chance that things wont work out BUT sometimes men say what they need to say to get the space they've asked for that some women are not so willing to give. I tend to hold on to something until it turns blue in the face and then only when it stings me do I let go and steer clear of the pain it brings. And sometimes people really do need time to figure out what they want out of their life and that doesn't make them a jerk or an ass or anything else it just makes them human. And sometimes everything works out in the end. I'm not holding my breath for the happy ending that Michele got but I'm not giving up on it either...not just yet. I am, however, backing off and chilling out because if I don't I stand more of a chance of losing him forever, even as a friend.
It's just nice to know that finally I got what I needed. The Lord knew what I needed to hear and how I needed to hear it and then He delivered Michele, dinner at TGI Fridays, and a walk around Khol's. :-)
I've been having a very difficult time dealing with this breakup, seeing as I really had hopped this would be it for me. It's very painful and slightly annoying when your friends and family have all kinds of unhelpful comments to offer and suggestions for moving on. I'm sorry folks but when you've been dumped you don't want to hear things like "there's more fish in the sea" or "what a jerk, you deserve so much better". etc, etc, ad nauseum. It's words like these that make your heartbreak even more difficult to bear and when in truth you want nothing more than for that person to realize their mistake and come rushing back into your life, it makes you wish you didn't have friends at all. Okay, maybe that last part was a bit extreme, but people... give a girl some time to breathe and mourn and wish for a return before you slap her in the face with "you deserve so much better". At least this girl doesn't want to hear that until I've either moved on or decided I'm done mourning the loss, because let's face it if I thought that he wasn't worth it, I wouldn't still be crying and being depressed.
It was so refreshing to get to spend the evening with my friend Michele last night. We talked about her job and things that she's been going through and how much she wished she had more girl friends closer to where she lives. Then the time came to talk about my disappointing breakup. What a relief that she didn't call him a jerk or say anything negative at all, for Michele has been through what I am going through. He's not a jerk and yes he's said some mean and hurtful things and YES there is a strong chance that things wont work out BUT sometimes men say what they need to say to get the space they've asked for that some women are not so willing to give. I tend to hold on to something until it turns blue in the face and then only when it stings me do I let go and steer clear of the pain it brings. And sometimes people really do need time to figure out what they want out of their life and that doesn't make them a jerk or an ass or anything else it just makes them human. And sometimes everything works out in the end. I'm not holding my breath for the happy ending that Michele got but I'm not giving up on it either...not just yet. I am, however, backing off and chilling out because if I don't I stand more of a chance of losing him forever, even as a friend.
It's just nice to know that finally I got what I needed. The Lord knew what I needed to hear and how I needed to hear it and then He delivered Michele, dinner at TGI Fridays, and a walk around Khol's. :-)
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So I've been catching up on reading your blog... yeesh woman. A few comments:
1. I'm sorry about your break up. Those suck. I hope there are lots of people around to keep you distracted. I've never been a fan of "there are lots of fish in the sea" lines because if I want salmon and the sea is full of some other type of fish then I'm not really satisfied.
2. That guy that lied about being married- I kinda wanna beat him up for you. That is stinking crazy.
3. Your pictures are beautiful! How did you get to become such a talented photographer? I love them all... You should start a photography blog that is JUST your pictures.
4. I rather miss yo face. I know we really only hung out like once or twice (mostly because I live in Utah) but you always made me laugh up a storm. *sigh*
Luv ya woman.
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