Things Are Different Now

I cut my hair.

I'm quitting my daily post
(which is a bit of a relief because I either told too much or bored myself with my posts)

I had a big fight.

I lost a lot of sleep.

I shared something deeply personal and horribly embarrassing with someone I love dearly.

I asked my daddy for a blessing...and realized I could never marry someone that couldn't someday do the same for my family.

I realized that God gave me a sister that knows every time I need her and then she calls.

I want so badly to meet my boyfriend's children, it makes me nervous and excited all rolled into one. We're supposed to be going to the zoo if it doesn't rain and that makes me happy too.

My mother told me something that I would never have expected from her:
"We are not guaranteed anything in this life except the opportunity to live it. I used to think that just paying my tithing, living the gospel, going to church, raising my family righteously, all that would guarantee me protection. It doesn't. But God doesn't give us trials he doesn't know we can't handle."

I realized how short sighted men are. And how much they just don't notice things until you point them out.

I realized that I deeply want an eternal marriage...and I know who I want the other person to be in that deal...and I'm perfectly okay waiting for him to catch up.

No matter what happens I'm so in love, with my friends, with my life, with my family, with Nathan.