Day 119

I didn't get to talk to Nathan last night so I've been feeling very sad and pretty depressed all day today. I know lame-o girly thing to do...be one of THOSE girls. Maybe not though, maybe it's just the right thing to do, miss someone so much when they're not around and you can't talk to them that you feel like your entire world is going to explode at any moment. Maybe not, but for me I'll make an exception. :-P I've always been that girl, I get so wrapped up in someone that whenever they're not around for long periods of time I feel so much pain from the separation. Perhaps I need to work on not feeling quite so much, but then again, I wouldn't be me without all the intense feelings and emotions. I miss my friends almost as much as I miss my boyfriend. It's so sad when people leave your life, or just move just far enough away from you that you don't have nearly the amount of interaction you would like. There are quite a few people that I miss tremendously...they've either just decided to change their lives and move out of Raleigh, or they got married and moved, or they got married and had kids and so they have no time to hang out anymore. My single friends in the area are few and far between. But on the plus side, Stephanie is moving to the beach for the summer :-D so I'm very happy about that!

When I went on lunch I texted Nathan and asked him if he was busy. He was, he was taking care of some transcript issues after his Final. But when he was done he asked what was up, I told him I was hoping to get to talk to him on my lunch break since we didn't get to talk last night. He said okay I'll call you in a minute. And he did. We only got to talk for 20 minutes but it really boosted my day. Just getting to hear his voice made me feel so much better... we haven't actually spoken on the phone since last Saturday so this has been a very difficult week...I mean I'm used to at least an hour a night, usually way more. It felt good, like getting to hold someone's hand when you're feeling lonely. It helped me through the rest of the day.

After work I did the pick up/drop off with Em, who has informed me that she's getting a bit of a promotion so she'll need to be working an extra hour every day and so she'll probably be getting her own car soon. YAY for Emily! But Boo because I've grown to thoroughly enjoy our time spent in the car together, even if it is only 10 minutes a couple times a week. After I got home I powered through a workout, the burning in my muscles felt really good! I love that feeling, the feeling of success! lol. After I had dinner: Popcorn Shrimp, cooked carrots, corn and Mashed Potatoes. So YUM! I also made a small smoothie to drink. Then I read quite a bit and worked on my bag some...just sewing the lining in so far.

Speaking of which, the stitching on the underside is puckering and it's very annoying. I really have no clue as to why it could be doing this, so if anyone knows please enlighten me. I feel like maybe I have some setting wrong for the type of stitch I'm doing, but I try not to mess with most of that too often, or maybe it's because of the type of fabric I'm using? I have no idea. But it's very frustrating.