Day 27
Today was by far one of the quietest days I've ever experienced at work...It was SO nice I wish it would happen ALL the time. Management and a few of the agents were at an Expo downtown which most of the vendors attended, which means the phone barely rang at all! Loved it! And I happened to bring my blanket that I'm crocheting with me so whenever I had a few minutes after my work was done I got to work on it...which was quite a bit since my work doesn't take that long to get done.
After work I picked up Emily because her boyfriend had to work until 6:30 so she came home with me and we worked out. It felt SO GOOD! Then came dinner and Todd picked Em up and it was shower time for me then I watched Varsity Blues while crocheting and pondering some things.
My mother has added another perspective to my pile of reasons to move or not to move. If Nathan does decide to go to school at UNC he'll be moving to Raleigh which means if I can't find a job and a place to live again here, I'm stuck in Wilmington and we start our long distance trip all over again. UGH. And with him going to a four year school it will be worse as far as time goes. Her other concern is that if we break up I'm stuck there. We'll I'm not worried about the breaking up part, if the relationship doesn't work out then it's no big deal I plan to make friends there and I'll have friends and a job and church. Not that I like to think about if we break up but I do like to be prepared...so if that does happen I'm not worried about living somewhere different at all. However, if he does move to Raleigh for school I am worried about finding a job here again. I've been applying for State jobs for the last four years and no one has hired me outside of the job I have now. So if no one will hire me now why would they hire me in a year? I think maybe if I get out of DOT and this really low level position then perhaps employers will be more interested...ya never know. But truthfully, I think if I spend all my time worrying about the what if's I'll never do anything and I'll just be stuck in one spot for the rest of my life.
After work I picked up Emily because her boyfriend had to work until 6:30 so she came home with me and we worked out. It felt SO GOOD! Then came dinner and Todd picked Em up and it was shower time for me then I watched Varsity Blues while crocheting and pondering some things.
My mother has added another perspective to my pile of reasons to move or not to move. If Nathan does decide to go to school at UNC he'll be moving to Raleigh which means if I can't find a job and a place to live again here, I'm stuck in Wilmington and we start our long distance trip all over again. UGH. And with him going to a four year school it will be worse as far as time goes. Her other concern is that if we break up I'm stuck there. We'll I'm not worried about the breaking up part, if the relationship doesn't work out then it's no big deal I plan to make friends there and I'll have friends and a job and church. Not that I like to think about if we break up but I do like to be prepared...so if that does happen I'm not worried about living somewhere different at all. However, if he does move to Raleigh for school I am worried about finding a job here again. I've been applying for State jobs for the last four years and no one has hired me outside of the job I have now. So if no one will hire me now why would they hire me in a year? I think maybe if I get out of DOT and this really low level position then perhaps employers will be more interested...ya never know. But truthfully, I think if I spend all my time worrying about the what if's I'll never do anything and I'll just be stuck in one spot for the rest of my life.
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It's hard to consider that you would have to do long distance again when you're trying to stop that - but you really can't live with 'What-if' cuz there's a million of those. But if you want to talk 'what-ifs' someday, then I can give you a million scenarios.
Just make a choice and hope that choice only gives you good things.
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