Day 21
Decisions decisions! I turned in an application for a job in Wilmington. And now I have another one to apply for. I know that if anything happens it probably wont be until closer to summer, but oh my! What do you do when you have a huge decision to make and you're trying so hard not to let that decision be made because of a person but truthfully that person is the only reason you're even considering a change? *sigh* My Heavenly Father and I had a long chat last night. It was mostly one sided because I'm still waiting on some kind of an answer here.
To move, or not to move? THAT is my question.
If the process takes as long as I think it might, I have time to save the money so that wont be an issue. And I have time to help Jordan find another roommate. But then I have to find a roommate. I'm probably getting ahead of myself though, I haven't been offered a decent job in so long I'm starting to think I'm not marketable any longer...so I may not even hear back from these jobs. I feel like I'm trapped in limbo. I don't have a good feeling about this or a bad feeling about it...I'm just very nervous. This would be a ginormous change in my life, I've thought it through but I feel like my judgement is clouded a bit. There's reasons to go and reasons to stay and any one of them could change my mind in a split second and then I'm lost again.
Oh how I need guidance...not people telling me to just do it because it would be fun or the negative reason of "oh you're just moving for a boy, don't do it" I need to seriously weigh the consequences and repercussions of making such a drastic change in my life right now. What do I have to loose though? I'm not married and I have no children here holding me to this very spot. I have an amazing roommate but what's to say I can't have that again? I had this very same conversation not too long ago with someone else...if you're single now is the time to take your life into your hands and experience it, you have nothing holding you tightly into one spot so if you can find a job in a new place and you have the means to live there, do it. Well that's easy when you're telling it to another person, but when you're the one on the receiving end of that advice it's terrifying.
What to do, what to do.
To move, or not to move? THAT is my question.
If the process takes as long as I think it might, I have time to save the money so that wont be an issue. And I have time to help Jordan find another roommate. But then I have to find a roommate. I'm probably getting ahead of myself though, I haven't been offered a decent job in so long I'm starting to think I'm not marketable any longer...so I may not even hear back from these jobs. I feel like I'm trapped in limbo. I don't have a good feeling about this or a bad feeling about it...I'm just very nervous. This would be a ginormous change in my life, I've thought it through but I feel like my judgement is clouded a bit. There's reasons to go and reasons to stay and any one of them could change my mind in a split second and then I'm lost again.
Oh how I need guidance...not people telling me to just do it because it would be fun or the negative reason of "oh you're just moving for a boy, don't do it" I need to seriously weigh the consequences and repercussions of making such a drastic change in my life right now. What do I have to loose though? I'm not married and I have no children here holding me to this very spot. I have an amazing roommate but what's to say I can't have that again? I had this very same conversation not too long ago with someone else...if you're single now is the time to take your life into your hands and experience it, you have nothing holding you tightly into one spot so if you can find a job in a new place and you have the means to live there, do it. Well that's easy when you're telling it to another person, but when you're the one on the receiving end of that advice it's terrifying.
What to do, what to do.
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Been there done that. As soon as I finished college I moved to Ca. It was really hard at first but eventually I made friends and then I met Peter. But first things first. Don't think about it and don't get worked up about it. When I applied for my current job there were 160 applications and they had already decided on the 5 they were going to interview BEFORE they posted the job. I'm not saying you won't get the job what I'm saying is wait until u do before it comes to decision time. After you've done your part then HF will let you know if it's right. Plus depending on the job you get it might be worth it since ur current job is not where you want to stay forever. I remember my cowork saying if I stay any longer I'll never leave this job and this isn't where I want to be 5 yrs from now. I know how easy it is to get all worked up I do it all the time. What I've learned is to take it one step at a time and HF has promised us that He will stop us if we're going in the wrong direction. Good luck!! I'm excited for you.
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