Trials, Trials, and... Oh Yeah, More Trials!
Everyone in this life has trials to get through, right? I mean no matter what kind of person you are, good or bad, you're going to encounter some trials throughout your existence. My life in the last 6 months or so has been riddled with them. I've put off too much complaint because, well, my trials aren't as awful and hurtful and difficult as many MANY other people's. But I have just reached my breaking point.
Let's start with the first issue, my job. I have been covering another person's job since they left out of here over two and a half years ago, without complaint or pay might I add, and now that the job has become available they are overlooking me. Seriously. I applied, I interviewed and then they re-posted the position and re-interviewed, then they decided to re-post and re-interview again...a third set of applicants and interviews. Nice. So to me that says, we don't want you in this job, what else could they mean by that? Yeah. Complete crap. So I've been lucky to have found several jobs worth applying for and I had the most incredible interview with the Department of Agriculture the other week and I'm praying daily and nightly that I get the job.
Next, my boyfriend dumped me. It's been a while, yes, but the pain associated with this loss has not lessened. It's depressing every day how much I miss being with him. We still talk, we keep in touch, and we've seen each other twice post break-up. It's been a very depressing trial to go through because I could have sworn he was it...Shoot I still swear he's it. Who knows, maybe I really am destined to be the dog lady, 80 years old and surrounded by dogs. GOD, I hope not!
Most recent, my roommate decided on a whim that she's moving to Utah...in a week. Seriously?!?! Do you know how unprepared I was for this?? Incredibly unprepared. October is about a week or so away and I don't have anyone that is willing to move in. This trial has just caused the amount of stress I'm dealing with to skyrocket. I don't know what to do, I want to sit down and just cry but I keep reminding myself that it will do nothing but make my face blotchy and my nose stuffy and give me a headache, so I don't cry. But I can't get over how selfish she's being. She could have waited a mere three months until our lease is up and then moved wherever she wanted, that would have at least given me time to find a new roomie. But one week is NOT enough time...not even close to it. I swear the panic attack I'm having is the most intense and craziest I've had in a long time.
Oh yes and let's not forget my back. Wow, I can't even begin to describe my frustration with this. I'm 27, I've only been slightly overweight, well according to the BMI I'm obese but whatever, for a few years. Whenever my back goes out it goes OUT...on a vacation or something. It's killing me it's so painful. I've put off taking Prednisone for a while because it makes you fat and I've been so close to the end of this diet that I didn't want to risk gaining a lot back so quickly, but alas, I could put it off no longer. Hopefully it will only cause minimal damage and my back will heal by the time I'm done taking the dose pack. *sigh*
My friend Sara said something very obvious to me today: You may not create drama girl, but it sure does LOVE to come and find you.
Yes, yes it does. Stupid drama. My ridiculous life! I hope that because I'm going through this all at one time I'm going to have some seriously incredible blessings to follow. PLEASE!!!
Let's start with the first issue, my job. I have been covering another person's job since they left out of here over two and a half years ago, without complaint or pay might I add, and now that the job has become available they are overlooking me. Seriously. I applied, I interviewed and then they re-posted the position and re-interviewed, then they decided to re-post and re-interview again...a third set of applicants and interviews. Nice. So to me that says, we don't want you in this job, what else could they mean by that? Yeah. Complete crap. So I've been lucky to have found several jobs worth applying for and I had the most incredible interview with the Department of Agriculture the other week and I'm praying daily and nightly that I get the job.
Next, my boyfriend dumped me. It's been a while, yes, but the pain associated with this loss has not lessened. It's depressing every day how much I miss being with him. We still talk, we keep in touch, and we've seen each other twice post break-up. It's been a very depressing trial to go through because I could have sworn he was it...Shoot I still swear he's it. Who knows, maybe I really am destined to be the dog lady, 80 years old and surrounded by dogs. GOD, I hope not!
Most recent, my roommate decided on a whim that she's moving to Utah...in a week. Seriously?!?! Do you know how unprepared I was for this?? Incredibly unprepared. October is about a week or so away and I don't have anyone that is willing to move in. This trial has just caused the amount of stress I'm dealing with to skyrocket. I don't know what to do, I want to sit down and just cry but I keep reminding myself that it will do nothing but make my face blotchy and my nose stuffy and give me a headache, so I don't cry. But I can't get over how selfish she's being. She could have waited a mere three months until our lease is up and then moved wherever she wanted, that would have at least given me time to find a new roomie. But one week is NOT enough time...not even close to it. I swear the panic attack I'm having is the most intense and craziest I've had in a long time.
Oh yes and let's not forget my back. Wow, I can't even begin to describe my frustration with this. I'm 27, I've only been slightly overweight, well according to the BMI I'm obese but whatever, for a few years. Whenever my back goes out it goes OUT...on a vacation or something. It's killing me it's so painful. I've put off taking Prednisone for a while because it makes you fat and I've been so close to the end of this diet that I didn't want to risk gaining a lot back so quickly, but alas, I could put it off no longer. Hopefully it will only cause minimal damage and my back will heal by the time I'm done taking the dose pack. *sigh*
My friend Sara said something very obvious to me today: You may not create drama girl, but it sure does LOVE to come and find you.
Yes, yes it does. Stupid drama. My ridiculous life! I hope that because I'm going through this all at one time I'm going to have some seriously incredible blessings to follow. PLEASE!!!
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Well. There are certainly no guarantees as to when and if it will get better and I can totally relate. My last child's name is the Hebrew word for "Job" for a reason. BUT, one thing is for sure, You WILL survive it no matter how it seems now. But sometimes it's nice to whine and complain and ask "why, why, why?" so let it out sista.
Your roommate seems like a nice person but what she is doing is wrong and she should pay her 1/2 until SHE finds another roommate. I'm sorry you're going through a rough time! I wish there was something I could do to help!
Honey bunny, I'm sorry life is a bit rough for you. I went through a rough patch a few months ago. It just goes down and down and down and finally it gets just a little bit better.
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