Will REAL Life Ever Be This Good?
I love books. I have more books than shoes, which if you know me is a big deal. While I was in college they offered a buy back program for your text books that you had to buy but somehow they never offered enough money ($10 for an $80 book just doesn't cut it!), so I always just kept my books. Since I was a history major this was beneficial to me anyhow because I always imagined myself being like my advisor and having so many history books filling my book shelves that there were piles starting to litter the floor. My passion didn't stop at school books though. I love to read all kinds of stuff... fiction, true crime, mystery, etc etc. Back in the days when I had no trouble staying up all hours of the night and could skip classes (sadly you can't do that with work) I would get so caught up in a book that I wouldn't stop reading it until I was done! Only taking breaks to do necessary things like shower (peeing and eating could be done with book in hand). When it comes to reading I can get very obsessive. When there was a book that I couldn't NOT read but couldn't seem to get through the text I learned that the library had tons of them in audio format. I soon gained another obsession... Unabridged Audio. *sigh* :-) It really helps me to be able to have someone else read it to me so I could focus on doing dishes and cleaning house or driving or working out and have my subconscious focused fully on what was being read. I made it through The Ballad of Frankie Silver that way. It was a fabulous book but reading it I just couldn't make it through the first few chapters, but listening to it I made it to the end and then checked it out a month later and listened to it again.
If I start reading a series and I find it to be fabulous, I can't wait for the next book. It's like all of a sudden I can't stop thinking about these characters and what will happen next in their lives.
Besides being an obsessive reader I'm also a very visual reader. I've plotted and executed the murder of a hated woman, stood by a river in Russia and thrown a murder weapon into its depths, writhed with fever on a couch, and gone to prison for crimes I thought I could commit without being caught. I've gone through six years of wizarding school. I traveled with orphans from home to home being displaced continuously until finally taking matters into my own hands and settling down with a better life. I've become a police officer in the future, solving grisly crimes and being married to one of the hottest men EVER. I fell asleep and awoke in a beautiful Wonderland where things aren't as the seem and wanted nothing more than to get back to reality. And most recently I've become a girl in love with a vampire and suffering from unmentionable pain after his departure to give me a better life. When I read fictional books it's like I am in them. I become the characters that I read and I love it. I love going through the adventures of these characters and it takes me out of this mediocre life that I am living and gives me something more. (300 friend points to anyone who can guess all the books I've just described!)
Sadly, for me, my obsessive reading behavior tends to send me on a depression spiral. How will my life ever compare? It shouldn't even be a question! These are fictional characters living lives someone made up for them and then put down on paper. But when your life is so pitiful and full of monotony you long for the drama and action packed life of the characters
you read. (okay so I don't really want to murder anyone and get sick because of the mental repercussions and then go to jail!) As I read my most recently acquired obsession (and this one was a quick obsession... sometimes it takes a while and sometimes it's a fast falling) I can't help but feel every emotion that the character is experiencing. These are emotions anyone has deep inside them and some of us have even felt before, I know I have, and so it makes it so easy for me to cling to the lives of these characters and wish that my life could be so interesting. Instead, I go to work at a dull and mindless job every day and go home at night, not alone but not to snuggle up with some sexy man either. Perhaps someday Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White and any other Disney princess will be jealous of the life I'm leading, because let's face it their story ended right after prince charming showed up. But at this rate it's looking like their lives, along with every other fictional character in this world, are far more interesting than the one I've got.
Maybe I shouldn't think this way, certainly it's unhealthy, but some days I just can't help it. I know the reaction I'll get... Girl put down the books and go make your life what you want. But seriously people, that's all easier said then actually done. I'll work on it but first I want to know when Edward is coming back and what type of love affair Bella will experience with him this time. :-D
If I start reading a series and I find it to be fabulous, I can't wait for the next book. It's like all of a sudden I can't stop thinking about these characters and what will happen next in their lives.
Besides being an obsessive reader I'm also a very visual reader. I've plotted and executed the murder of a hated woman, stood by a river in Russia and thrown a murder weapon into its depths, writhed with fever on a couch, and gone to prison for crimes I thought I could commit without being caught. I've gone through six years of wizarding school. I traveled with orphans from home to home being displaced continuously until finally taking matters into my own hands and settling down with a better life. I've become a police officer in the future, solving grisly crimes and being married to one of the hottest men EVER. I fell asleep and awoke in a beautiful Wonderland where things aren't as the seem and wanted nothing more than to get back to reality. And most recently I've become a girl in love with a vampire and suffering from unmentionable pain after his departure to give me a better life. When I read fictional books it's like I am in them. I become the characters that I read and I love it. I love going through the adventures of these characters and it takes me out of this mediocre life that I am living and gives me something more. (300 friend points to anyone who can guess all the books I've just described!)
Sadly, for me, my obsessive reading behavior tends to send me on a depression spiral. How will my life ever compare? It shouldn't even be a question! These are fictional characters living lives someone made up for them and then put down on paper. But when your life is so pitiful and full of monotony you long for the drama and action packed life of the characters
you read. (okay so I don't really want to murder anyone and get sick because of the mental repercussions and then go to jail!) As I read my most recently acquired obsession (and this one was a quick obsession... sometimes it takes a while and sometimes it's a fast falling) I can't help but feel every emotion that the character is experiencing. These are emotions anyone has deep inside them and some of us have even felt before, I know I have, and so it makes it so easy for me to cling to the lives of these characters and wish that my life could be so interesting. Instead, I go to work at a dull and mindless job every day and go home at night, not alone but not to snuggle up with some sexy man either. Perhaps someday Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White and any other Disney princess will be jealous of the life I'm leading, because let's face it their story ended right after prince charming showed up. But at this rate it's looking like their lives, along with every other fictional character in this world, are far more interesting than the one I've got.Maybe I shouldn't think this way, certainly it's unhealthy, but some days I just can't help it. I know the reaction I'll get... Girl put down the books and go make your life what you want. But seriously people, that's all easier said then actually done. I'll work on it but first I want to know when Edward is coming back and what type of love affair Bella will experience with him this time. :-D
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Okay - so I won't be able to get all 300 of those friend points, but I knew a few of them.
And it's so true. Thus the reason I LOVE reading. And I honestly think I need to do more of it. Yes - it makes my life seem dull and plain, more so than usual. But I love living in someone else's shoes for a bit. ESPECIALLY Bella's.... oh, Edward is AMAZING!!
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