Pain and Love, Love and Pain

They beat you up until you can't stand it but they're both a major part of your life. One really can't exist with out the other, right? Right. You feel love after the pain and pain after love and it just cycles over and over again. I don't mean romantic love by the way because let's face it there's not a hell of a lot of that in my life, EVER. I'm speaking of the general love of friends and family. I love my family, and everyone knows there's all kinds of pain that goes along with families... but once you make it through the pain there's the love and understanding. I love my friends... but they inevitably do something that will put me through some kind of pain and I know I put them through pain but in the end we probably love each other more after that trial. It's just so hard to see the love right now.

Let me vent for a moment and don't take what I say for a grain of salt because most likely it is the pain talking... or perhaps you could learn something new... who knows?

In life there are times when we have to make decisions, big, small, not so big, and terribly humongous! but these decisions have to be made. You can not hide from them, you can't just stick your head in the ground like an Ostrich and wait for the decisions to go away. There comes a time in your life that you just have to suck it up and be an adult and make decisions. Now, the decision you made may hurt someone deeply, or maybe it makes them very happy, or maybe it puts you in an awkward situation... either way you made the decision. Obviously you have to live with the consequences that follow but at the same time you can't live your life being stressed about making the right or wrong choice... there comes a point in our lives where we just start doing things and let the chips land where they may. Sometimes that's life, you know? It's like some people put way too much thought into things and so they over analyze life and then they become afraid to try anything new or live life in general. You can't go around living life that way or you're not living!

Say you get a wild hair and decide you want to visit Hawaii, but then you start thinking, oh God what about volcanoes, and hurricanes, and this and that and all this ... you start to over analyze and WHAM you miss out on the opportunity of a lifetime just because you couldn't stop analysing everything. Then there's the whole guy portion of it, a guy likes you and you know that he likes you, you don't question it! You just go with it. I mean hell he's got to like you for some reason whether you know it or not shouldn't matter! If you close your eyes and look the other way every time a guy shows interest, or worse hide yourself in someone that doesn't give a flying fart in space about you, then you're going to miss out on, you guessed it! Yet another opportunity of a lifetime! Some times folks you just have to sit down and say HEY this looks good I'm going to do it. And leave it at that. That's how we experience life! When opportunity knocks on your door you answer it, you don't run upstairs and hide under the bed! You have to get out there and just DO stuff... otherwise what will you be able to say on your deathbed? I sort of kind of lived...maybe a little.

I don't know about anyone else but from this point on I'm looking at my life as an adventure and I'm going to do everything I can to make it memorable! I'm done sulking and waiting around for things to happen... that's bullshit.. I'm going to go out and MAKE things happen. Maybe I'll see you there.

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