As My World Turns,

My life seems to get duller by the day. Lately all I've done is get up in the AM at about 4 because I can't sleep through the entire night... my muscles sieze up and I'm forced to wake up and put on my Tens Unit just so I can get another hour of sleep. When I get home in the evenings I lay down to give my back a break and just lay there and read. I'm afraid to do much of anything lately because I don't want to make something crappy worse. So far it's been three weeks and it's getting better but just SO slow! And I hate that all the news I have is about my back. Nothing good seems to be happening to me lately. I read all my friends blogs and they have all kinds of fun and do amazing things and all I seem to do is whine about the fact that I'm broken. It just SUCKS. I need a life. I need a roommate too, there's bound to be at least one person in this world that wouldn't mind living with me. It's really driving me nutso because I just can't find a place that I can afford on my own... not without having a much higher paying job. There's been a few places that are not very great looking but they're more affordable, like in the 600 range and that would be great if I made like 30,000 a year but I don't so I've got to find someone to live with that wouldn't mind living in a house that's older and cheap. It's hard to do. I don't get along with a lot of people in general but to have to live with someone there has to be a connection. There are so few people that I've had that connection with so I just don't think there's a lot of people around that I'd be able to get along with well enough to share a home with. It's so frustrating.