Late Night

This is the latest I've been up on a weeknight in a while. But for some reason or other (probably the two Excedrin I popped earlier) I just can't get to sleep.
I think I'm backsliding again. I have the sudden urge to go backwards. I don't want to be around people and I'm having a really hard time at work. It appears that where I thought I might get a promotion I was wrong. I knew it in my heart but, I was kinda holding on to some small hope that they might actually get some brains... I was wrong.
I'm saddened by people and their stupidity, ignorance, and intolerance. Just because someone does something you don't approve of doesn't give you the right to judge. Please keep these thoughts and feelings away from me because they only make me want to punch you. I'm so tired of the world around me right now, I just want to curl up under my blanket and never come out again... or better yet run away to some deserted island in the sun, never to be seen or heard from again. Some days I really wish my life was a work of fiction, I'm so fed up with reality.
I want the job I desire, I want a degree, I want things to be easier, I want gas prices to go back down for heaven's sake!, I want to find a place to live without all this trouble of having to find a roommate, I really really want to be with someone... I'm so tired of going through this all alone. There seems to be a small glimmer of hope on the horizon and then it is yanked away from me, I thought I had a chance with someone and then I realized I must have been dreaming, no way would that ever work out.
Oh boy, forgive my rantings, I realize they're all over the place but this is my thought process late at night and hopped up on caffeine.