Life Is Tough
I'm going to start this off by saying...it may seem petty but to me it's heart breaking.
I've got a lot of decisions to make right now and some of the hardest decisions of my life, it reminds me of how much I hate being grown up. I've been called crazy and stupid because for the last 7 years or so I've had anywhere from 3-6 dogs. I realize that sounds like sheer lunacy but it is what it is. When I moved back in with my parents after dropping out of college, I came with 5 dogs. Last year I gave two of those dogs to a friend that I knew would take very good care of them and now he's married to a woman who I know will make sure of that because she loves animals just as much if not more than I do. Now I'm down to three. If it were three little bitty lap dogs this wouldn't be so hard but it's three very large dogs all over 50lbs. These dogs need a yard to romp and play in and trips to the vet that cost a fortune. But I have always found some way to make it work.
This weekend I've realized that I need to do not only what's best for me but what's best for these sweet and loving dogs that I have raised from puppies to adulthood. It breaks my heart and I start crying like a baby every single time I begin to think about what I need to do. I'm searching for a place to live and it's been very difficult to find one such place in my price range as a single person. I wont have a roommate and I'm not sure I'll have a job that pays me enough to have the kind of house I will need to be able to keep my babies. The more I've talked to people about it the more sense they begin to make when they tell me it will be better for not only me but the dogs as well for me to just find new homes for them. *sigh*
My parents have offered to take my oldest dog, Bella, in and keep her and dad told me that if I get things straightened out and am in a position a few years down the road to take her back they will gladly let me have her back. As for the other two, Freckles and Daisy, my roommate found this place that's like an adoption agency for pets and she made it sound like a really great place that does a hell of a job finding a good home for animals. I guess my best bet is to find out more information from her about this place (she took her dog there when she felt like she just couldn't give her the attention she needed). This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with in my life. That may sound sad because so many people go through so much worse things in life, and I count my blessings I've never had to deal with much worse, but my heart is breaking into little pieces right now. I have loved these dogs for a long time and raised them up from little sharp toothed, wet nosed, puppies into the big old lovable furballs they are today. It is like I am giving up my children, but I just have to keep reminding myself that it's what is best for them. Someone else could take them to the vet and make sure they have all their shots and medications and that they get a big old yard to run and play in...while I just barely have enough time to give them the love and attention they need and never have enough money to take them to the vet as often as they need.
Bella
Daisy
Freckles
I don't know how I will get through this, I just know that I'm going to need all the prayers I can get.
I've got a lot of decisions to make right now and some of the hardest decisions of my life, it reminds me of how much I hate being grown up. I've been called crazy and stupid because for the last 7 years or so I've had anywhere from 3-6 dogs. I realize that sounds like sheer lunacy but it is what it is. When I moved back in with my parents after dropping out of college, I came with 5 dogs. Last year I gave two of those dogs to a friend that I knew would take very good care of them and now he's married to a woman who I know will make sure of that because she loves animals just as much if not more than I do. Now I'm down to three. If it were three little bitty lap dogs this wouldn't be so hard but it's three very large dogs all over 50lbs. These dogs need a yard to romp and play in and trips to the vet that cost a fortune. But I have always found some way to make it work.
This weekend I've realized that I need to do not only what's best for me but what's best for these sweet and loving dogs that I have raised from puppies to adulthood. It breaks my heart and I start crying like a baby every single time I begin to think about what I need to do. I'm searching for a place to live and it's been very difficult to find one such place in my price range as a single person. I wont have a roommate and I'm not sure I'll have a job that pays me enough to have the kind of house I will need to be able to keep my babies. The more I've talked to people about it the more sense they begin to make when they tell me it will be better for not only me but the dogs as well for me to just find new homes for them. *sigh*
My parents have offered to take my oldest dog, Bella, in and keep her and dad told me that if I get things straightened out and am in a position a few years down the road to take her back they will gladly let me have her back. As for the other two, Freckles and Daisy, my roommate found this place that's like an adoption agency for pets and she made it sound like a really great place that does a hell of a job finding a good home for animals. I guess my best bet is to find out more information from her about this place (she took her dog there when she felt like she just couldn't give her the attention she needed). This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with in my life. That may sound sad because so many people go through so much worse things in life, and I count my blessings I've never had to deal with much worse, but my heart is breaking into little pieces right now. I have loved these dogs for a long time and raised them up from little sharp toothed, wet nosed, puppies into the big old lovable furballs they are today. It is like I am giving up my children, but I just have to keep reminding myself that it's what is best for them. Someone else could take them to the vet and make sure they have all their shots and medications and that they get a big old yard to run and play in...while I just barely have enough time to give them the love and attention they need and never have enough money to take them to the vet as often as they need.
I don't know how I will get through this, I just know that I'm going to need all the prayers I can get.
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