The Things That Go On
I think it's safe to say I've moved on.
Things that have happened. I met a great guy at church, we went on our first (and hopefully not last) date last weekend. He's pretty amazing, strong testimony, and he makes me laugh...a lot. So, needless to say I've not been thinking about previous pain. And then today I found out that my ex's girlfriend is pregnant. I sat and waited for it to hit me, but I just sat there feeling sad for him, sad for her, and sad for this kid. I waited a little while longer and the only thing that hit me in that time frame was that I don't feel anything anymore. I guess it's safe to say I've finally moved on.
It's amazing the things that happen when you pray for help and guidance. After wallowing in pain and self pity for weeks, months even, and finally breaking down and begging in prayer for relief, I got a call from the Missionaries that they noticed they'd never met me and would I come to church. And I didn't call them back and I didn't call them back and finally I decided to suck it up and call them back and go to church. After deciding to go back to church weekly, start praying nightly and reading scriptures my heart began to heal and I finally started noticing other people.
I also have a roommate. A young lady from church had a last minute situation with her roommates abandoning her and she had a feeling she should talk to me, so she sent me a facebook message to text her. It turned out she had a few days to figure out a place to live and no options and I happened to have a spare bedroom fully furnished. She moved in that week and it has been a pleasure to have her every day. She is an amazing friend and has taught me so much and I love having her around.
And so things have changed and I spend every day a whole lot happier than I did before. I have set several short term goals for myself over the next few months: to get my Patriarchal Blessing, to get my Temple recommend and to have my Endowments before the end of the year and I am spending every day trying to build my testimony and focus on being a better example to those around me. I like change. It feels good.
Things that have happened. I met a great guy at church, we went on our first (and hopefully not last) date last weekend. He's pretty amazing, strong testimony, and he makes me laugh...a lot. So, needless to say I've not been thinking about previous pain. And then today I found out that my ex's girlfriend is pregnant. I sat and waited for it to hit me, but I just sat there feeling sad for him, sad for her, and sad for this kid. I waited a little while longer and the only thing that hit me in that time frame was that I don't feel anything anymore. I guess it's safe to say I've finally moved on.
It's amazing the things that happen when you pray for help and guidance. After wallowing in pain and self pity for weeks, months even, and finally breaking down and begging in prayer for relief, I got a call from the Missionaries that they noticed they'd never met me and would I come to church. And I didn't call them back and I didn't call them back and finally I decided to suck it up and call them back and go to church. After deciding to go back to church weekly, start praying nightly and reading scriptures my heart began to heal and I finally started noticing other people.
I also have a roommate. A young lady from church had a last minute situation with her roommates abandoning her and she had a feeling she should talk to me, so she sent me a facebook message to text her. It turned out she had a few days to figure out a place to live and no options and I happened to have a spare bedroom fully furnished. She moved in that week and it has been a pleasure to have her every day. She is an amazing friend and has taught me so much and I love having her around.
And so things have changed and I spend every day a whole lot happier than I did before. I have set several short term goals for myself over the next few months: to get my Patriarchal Blessing, to get my Temple recommend and to have my Endowments before the end of the year and I am spending every day trying to build my testimony and focus on being a better example to those around me. I like change. It feels good.
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YAY!! I'm so excited to hear things are going so well. Can you please let me know when you go to get your garments? If you are inviting people to share the experience I would love to be there! I hope things continue to move in a happier direction.
Thank you Sofia :) You really just made my day. The goal is for November and I will definitely keep you posted!
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