The Big Three OH!
It's approaching faster than I'd like. Usually a day for a big 'ol celebration my Birthday this year is causing some reflection. I can't say I feel like I am a failure because I have accomplished SO MUCH in the last 10 years BUT wow... 30, still single and I don't love my job. I can cope with the first part for the time being because my mom was 31 before she met and married my father and I know plenty of other women who remain single until their 40's before they meet their Eternal Companion. It's cool, I'm a firm believer I'll get there some day. It's the not loving my job that I can't take. I don't feel successful.
I guess I need to look at it from a different stand point... I am planting the seeds of success still, they're just taking a lot more time to grow than I expected. All in good time I guess. I just really had hoped to have a career that I love by the time I was 30. I do great things now, the photography is fun and helps me grow my network of amazing people and I've begun volunteering with the NHRMC Foundation on planning their annual Gala, which I hope I get to start working on next years very soon! I've started selling Mary Kay but not very successfully yet, it's amazing that I have this huge network of people I can tap for this kind of thing but somehow I manage to be afraid to ask them to come to a facial. *sigh* I'll get there some day soon. I have little bits and pieces of my life that I simply adore but then when you pull the entire frame into focus the whole picture still makes me sad.
I've thought about starting my own business but that terrifies me, especially since I'm still not sure Wilmington is where I plan to spend the rest of my days and I don't want to do it alone. But then, I haven't been able to find a way in to the event planning business by working for another company either. I just feel sort of stuck. I hope something happens soon though, because I don't want to turn 31 next year and think aw man I'm still stuck in this rut! I may be forced to do something dramatic at that point and it might not turn out so pretty haha. But then again, it might. I guess we shall see what this year holds for me. Definitely lots of prayer and searching.
I guess I need to look at it from a different stand point... I am planting the seeds of success still, they're just taking a lot more time to grow than I expected. All in good time I guess. I just really had hoped to have a career that I love by the time I was 30. I do great things now, the photography is fun and helps me grow my network of amazing people and I've begun volunteering with the NHRMC Foundation on planning their annual Gala, which I hope I get to start working on next years very soon! I've started selling Mary Kay but not very successfully yet, it's amazing that I have this huge network of people I can tap for this kind of thing but somehow I manage to be afraid to ask them to come to a facial. *sigh* I'll get there some day soon. I have little bits and pieces of my life that I simply adore but then when you pull the entire frame into focus the whole picture still makes me sad.
I've thought about starting my own business but that terrifies me, especially since I'm still not sure Wilmington is where I plan to spend the rest of my days and I don't want to do it alone. But then, I haven't been able to find a way in to the event planning business by working for another company either. I just feel sort of stuck. I hope something happens soon though, because I don't want to turn 31 next year and think aw man I'm still stuck in this rut! I may be forced to do something dramatic at that point and it might not turn out so pretty haha. But then again, it might. I guess we shall see what this year holds for me. Definitely lots of prayer and searching.
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